I have been dealing with depression and anxiety a lot in the past month or so. I have been seeing a therapist once a week for three weeks and it seems to be helping. She is really helping me to think in a different way than I am so used to.
The past 5 days have been the best I have had in a long time. I confided in my small group and begged for prayer from them and I know that this has helped! I feel better and I know it is from their prayers! I have also been very dedicated to reading the bible. Most of the "me" time I have been taking has me feeling guilty because I should have been doing something else more productive first. (laundry, cleaning bathrooms, etc) You just can't ever say or think that reading the bible is a waste of time. Being in the Word of God has really comforted me and helped me through this.
Another thing that has changed is I haven't looked at my google reader in over a week. Just this simple thing has made a huge difference. I know there are a 1000 plus posts waiting for me, but I'm not going to let them control MY time. I know now that I don't need that silly pressure from google reader of all things. I am going to shorten my subscriptions to only my few favorites! Why does that feel so hard? It is really crazy what simple, silly pressures we put on ourselves and we don't really see what we are doing to ourselves. Of course, google reader is not the only pressure I have, but it's a simple one that I have recognized and know that I can control it.
Just wanted to let you all know what is going on with me.
My full-time working mom and wife hat just needs to be adjusted. I am working on changing my way of thinkin'! It seems to be working!